Use of lorazepam

First, demand that the doctors abide by their Hippocratic oath (first, do no harm). Depakote and lithium are almost worse than the disease. I KNOW! The mood swings can be next to impossible to prevent. For myself, I prefer to control the worst with sedatives as needed. The mood swings are part of who I am. For me, lack of sleep is a definite tell so that I can use some lorazepam to sleep off the worst of the mood swing. You need a cooperative doctor who will help you as a person instead of just another crazy. Sorry.

Well, I was laughing throughout the whole thing. I think it was slightly too dramatic to take seriously. Like being in status epilepticus for some unknown time in front of her daughter, that cant be controlled until examined at the er and given multiple drugs...and she lived to vent her urine and feces another day. So, they tried lorazepam, phenobarbitol, and valproate, but had to give up, intubate her and then give her propofol, the anesthetic that killed Michael Jackson, ketamine, and lidocaine in order to stop her hysteria. And they topped it off with xenon and nitrous oxide. Damn.
When I read this paratrooper will kill you, I don't think being serious was ever the intent. What's next, are you going to put on your robe and wizard hat?
But the ending and the use of a human choice and not a damn plot device to get to it was good. The length of conflict wasn't unnecessarily long. So, the best way to reconcile this with reality is that this is a joke.

Although always a writer's choice, use of usually denotes speech, while use of ' usually denotes thought. I wonder your use of ' may cause confusion later. Otherwise great start

boring predictable ,use of real names , the use of the word cunt <<< not attractive.

Your use, or lack of use of punctuation is obscene. There are things called commas and periods. You really need to learn to use them. Really hard to read. Use an editor next time. Lit has them.

Enjoy reading the story, but it would be a better read if you fixed the spelling and grammar issues in all chapters. Read and pay attention to the advice given by Tx Tall Tales (https://www.literotica.com/s/love-your-readers).
Specifically:
- Use Both instead of The both (https://english.stackexchange.com/questions/159907/both-of-you-vs-the-both-of-you)
- Use himself instead of his self (https://languageandgrammar.com/2008/04/30/rid-yourself-of-hisself/)
- Use myself instead of my self (https://english.stackexchange.com/questions/316090/when-to-use-myself-and-by-myself)
- Consider cannot instead of can not (https://english.stackexchange.com/questions/204006/cannot-vs-can-not)
- Use alongside instead of along side (https://dictionary.cambridge.org/us/grammar/british-grammar/along-or-alongside)
- Use afterthought instead of after thought (https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/afterthought)
- Use hyperspace instead of hyper space (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hyperspace)
- Use transwarp instead of trans-swarp (http://stexpanded.wikia.com/wiki/Transwarp_drive)
- Use twenty instead of twehty to mean 20
- Use shutdown as a noun, shut down as a verb (https://docs.microsoft.com/en-us/style-guide/a-z-word-list-term-collections/s/shut-down-shutdown)
- Use Every day for a phrase, and everyday as an adjective (https://www.grammarly.com/blog/everyday-every-day/)
- Use elsewhere instead of else where (https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/elsewhere)
- Use led instead of lead when deception led to the destruction.
- Use fourth instead of forth when referencing the next one after the third.
- Use doesn't instead of don't for the third person (http://www.learnersdictionary.com/qa/don-t-and-doesn-t)
- Use nowhere instead of no where (https://www.grammarly.com/blog/nowhere-somewhere-anywhere/)
- Use forty-five instead of fourty-five
- Use better instead of more better (https://ell.stackexchange.com/questions/47284/is-more-better-ungrammatical)
- Use percent instead of precent
- Use overrode instead of over rode (https://www.dictionary.com/browse/overrode)
- Use affecting instead of effecting (https://www.vocabulary.com/articles/chooseyourwords/affect-effect/)